An Update

Well, getting married in 140-something days, crazy! We have so much planned already:

- date: 26th September
- venue: our church for the whole day
- caterer
- elder to marry us
- a registrar
- the guest list
- the invitations made up
- my dress!!!!!!!!!! (yeah, I’m a little excited about that!)
- bridesmaid – Chris’ sister
- ushers – my three brothers
- the finances sorted – thank you both sets of parents!
- duty manager
- photographer

And we have made decisions on other things, we just need to ask the respective people. Got a few things wedding-based planned for this week. Out tonight to ask a friend to be our wedding-car driver (and Naomi will be there of course!); we have an appointment at Debenhams to arrange our present list; we are going to the Wintermeyer’s to sort out who we will do Marriage Prep with and on Saturday Wendy, Chris’ sister and their Mum Hazel are coming across to look for bridesmaid dresses.

We are still house-hunting. Saw one in Shoreham we liked but there is an offer on it. Going to view a house in Portslade on Thursday. Had a drive round, the area seems nice and from the outside and the photos, the house looks good. We’re just praying that God will provide us with the right house at a good cost soon.

Had counselling last week – she thinks we are ready to finish meeting up now, yipee!! For a few weeks now for the most part I’ve been OK. Back at work, which is good and not panicking so much. Going to see the doctor on Thursday, will see what he says. Hoping to start coming off the medication. Actually, have run out of medication, slowly starting to feel ill because of it. But that is about all the bad news I have. It just feels great not beoing sad or panicky or ill all the time. I’m active and really having fun.

Still Off Sick

I went back to the doctor today and have been signed off for another two weeks. My parents are going to be cross. They kept telling me I had to refuse a sick note. Not sure how to break it to them. I know they mean well but they don’t understand. Oh well, I guess it doesn’t matter that they don’t like it, I’m still off. I will do some praying before I speak to them I think. I’ve had my medication changed and increased as well, yipee Means I’ll be feeling rough for a few days but I’ll manage. I’m so grateful to Chris though for coming with me earlier, had to wait over half an hour, would have really panicked without company.

Watched an amazing preach today, Mark Driscoll’s Marriage and Women. The Marriage and Men one is really good too. I really think people should watch them both. They are really useful and practical. Controversial yes, but Biblically correct and well worth paying attention too. I would love to visit Mars Hill one day. Church was amazing yesterday too. Phil preached, there were 16 baptisms, and 20 people became Christians. God is so incredible

I’ve been really blessed in that I’ve been spending a lot of time with Naomi. She is fast becoming one of my closest friend. I’m spending so much time with her, she is really fun and easy to be around, and a good friend. We’re going to another friend’s house for dinner tonight which will be great, and tomorrow we’re off out with a different friend and on Wednesday and Thursday we’re going to the cinema and bowling respectfully. It will be great.

Had a lovely date with Chris yesterday I love him so much and love spending time with him. We went to a restaurant just along the coast, on the cliffs and it was lovely. The sun was shining and the sea looked beautiful.

Must get back to essay writing. My two term papers are due in on 20th April (day I go back to work). I’ve started writing one of them, am 800 words in. Only 4200 to go! Eek! Nah it will be OK, I just need to keep my concentration up.

Off Sick

First sick day in ages, but I woke up with a horrid migraine, tried to sleep it off but it just got worse, and tablets weren’t helping so I had to call in sick. My parents will not be happy. I sometimes think they think I like being off sick, and I don’t. I do actually enjoy my job, it is just I seem to be prone to illness. Chris came to get me and I’m currently feeling a bit sorry for myself at his.

Had a lovely weekend though. I met up with Katie on Saturday We went to some farm and had lunch. I’ve forgotten how much I love spending time with her. I plan to make several trips up to Leeds to see her! Did hear about one friend who is unhappy with me because I’m often to busy to meet up when she is free, but you can’t please everyone, and if she wants to sulk, let her. I just think it is a bit rude that we were suppose to be close friends and she didn’t tell me that she is moving away too.

University starts up again this week. I’ve just edited some of my work so hopefully Dad will be able to read them tonight. They aren’t due in until next week but I would like to hand them in when I go in Wednesday.

I have the doctor’s on Friday morning. As my panic hasn’t been too bad recently I’m hoping that they will reduce my tablets. God has been so good to me, healing me, now I just hope I can get off the medication. That would be such a huge step as I’ve been on anti-depressants for over a year now. I will continue to pray for healing and the end of my medication.

Induction Day

Well today is the induction day at university. 3 hours of being told stuff I already know. And yet I’ve spent the morning crying and panicking. I decided with Lee that if I had another attack I wouldn’t go, and guess what, I had another attack. And I have to drive, what a stupid idea of mine. I’m not really in a state to drive, but what can I do? Dad needs the car. If I tell him how I am he will want me to drive anyway to be a brave Adult Katie. But right now, that isn’t me. I’m sat here with my teddy crying. I’ve tried calling Chris but he must be busy. Do I need to go to a lecture on how to use the library, when I’ve been using it for years? Do I need a tour around campus when I’ve been round many times? I know this is a good time to meet people, but I’m not really in a state where I can do that right now. But if I don’t go people will be cross with me. However, my counsellor has told me that I have to do what I think is best. But am I hiding? I don’t think I am, I missed induction lectures at Greenwich and I’ll be in on Monday for the proper lectures. What I want to do is turn my phone off and hide. And yes, for a while that would make me feel better. I have to drive and take the car to Dad but I don’t know about uni. I have to do what is right for me and I’m not sure the induction lecture is that.